Trip Down Memory Lane!!!

  Every once in a while I set and think about my favorite time of Life. If I had to choose what would it be, I think back to 1981 before my dad had his heart attack and died instantly. We were happy as could be, I had people die in the family but it doesn't hit home until its someone close. I was devastated and still have not snapped out of it to this day. My mom had her heart broke that day losing her one true love. She would tell me that from time to time when I was little that my dad was her one true love. I never got that until 1997 when I found mine. My mom went into mom and dad mode she rebounded for me. Most people did not know like I did that she was quit a woman. She was a great roll model Sunday school teacher, Lacon Politician, hard worker, smart, tough and most of all very Loving through the tough façade. She loved me through thick and thin. Even the teen age years when I was a Complete Dick!!  Cars and Girls and Freedom took over, but she never stopped the Love. She gave awesome advise to a kid that was very confused and like all mothers was always right. She Loved every animal in the world and saved many from death. She had a sharp tongue and stuck to her guns and took a lot of shit for it, But she stayed true!! I though Different at times as we all do but I realize now she was right. In the way she was, what meant something to her, and her convictions to stay true to her self.
  I always thought that back in 1981, before death, Jobs etc was the best of times. Back before School, bad attitudes  and Teen age years kicked in that if I died that might be heaven, the greatest place you would want to be. Ridding bikes till dinner, Pissing off the old lady down the street by doing so. Ridding in the back seat of the big Buick Electra to the Venture store in Peoria on Saturdays. not a care in the world!!  Good Times!! Good Times!!
 But dreams always end!!!
As I set here typing this post My mother is down at St Josephs nursing home in Lacon losing a battle with Alzheimer's Disease. It has ended this great mother and woman.  A woman that once could do long form Income taxes in her head then put them on Paper, now on days has no idea who she is or who I am. She has no idea about the life she had or those that were closest to her. There are no great memories. Spending time on the river boating, water skiing and swimming are all gone now. The winters when the river froze over it was time for ice skating she was in, and good at it I may add.
I cannot believe when I go visit, what happened to this Great person. I walk in every morning Hoping to see the old Mother I had back in 1970 to the late 2000's but she is never there.
 About 2 years ago now when my mother was still in her home there was a day when we were talking and fighting about getting her to eat lunch, the major confusion had set in years before but her time of being home alone where gone. She did look at me with the her old caring look and Say I love you Mike I always Will. that time has passed now, that will never be said again.
 Now she lays in bed a sleep most of the day, confused by the world. Her mind and body are both shutting down there is no walking, there are no games being played, the emotions of love  or pain or anything are gone. No more talks of growing up and her brother tommy being a trouble maker. No more sled rides, No more political Fights for hours on end!! just silence!! No more giant dinners with more food than an army would eat, my wife will testify to these.
 Sorry that this post went this way but I can not let another Mothers day week go By with out putting it our there. When you are young you never think how Life will turn out. Everybody and Everything is forever!! Not True!! This will be over before you Now it!
So remember to Love the People that you Love!! Tell them you Love them!! Keep the Memories alive!!!